Where Home is Just For a While

Many at times i have thought it a waste of time
Scrolling through the pages as i waste the all so precious dime
Looking at pictures scanning faces sublime.

I read new updates and statii page after page
And wonder if they ever remember me as we pass through the age.

Then come those days when in a dark room i sit
Filled with thoughts and memories is where we meet
I rush to my phone and open each page so neat
Just to get a glimpse of a life well knit.

In this world where one seems all alone
Just that smile can make the loneliness all gone
And immediately you feel much closer, like you're back home.

And that's why no matter how hard i try, i just can't delete facebook, that i don't lie.
Atleast not just yet.

And then i think

I had forgotten....now i remember...

I had forgotten how it was to just sit within your loving arms

Now i remember!!!
The tingling feeling i first felt as my hand was locked in your palms.

I had forgotten the sound of your ever havenly voice

Now i remember!!!
The glorious notes it made, such a beautiful noise.

I had forgotten the softness with which your skin felt under my touch

Now i remember!!!
From the top of your head to the soles of your feet; why i can't have too much.

I had forgotten how it felt to lie beside and feel the tenderness in your breath

Now i remember!!!
How it felt like to lie there, more peaceful than death.

I had forgotten the sound of your subtle laughter as we shared priceless moments

Now i remember!!!
The calmness it brought and how it disspelled all torments.

I had forgotten how it felt to just cry in your presence

Now i remember!!!
How much you care, it truly is your essence.

Shamefully, oh shamefully......

I had forgotten what it meant to Love You

NOW I REMEMBER!!!
That in all my life, its what i am meant to do.

I had forgotten...BUT...Now i remember!!!

Call to be saved

As tears strewn down her face
So did my heart shudder and break.

As she shared with me the episodes that are her life make,
So did i shudder and quake.

She told me of battles fought and wars waged,
My tears couldn't help it as in this book she paged.

She tormented over the many nights she smothered herself in tear,
And all i could do was lend her a loving ear.

Oh how such a beautiful heart could and break into so many pieces,
Makes me wanna give mine to make up for all the mistakes.

Sometimes i am left to wonder!

If LOVE is such a beautiful entity,
Why are some lives left in disaster,all so emptily.

All because of LOVE

Now i write this in the comfort of my single bed,
Having laid down my heart seeing it all spread.

And there is this thought that i am trying hard to evade,
The one that's telling me LOVE is like a grave yard- silent and dead.

I don't want to pay attention to that thought,
But as i look at her face and the tears she's shed- my goodness,in the thought i am caught.

Her beautiful face and all i see is the tracts of her tears,
I shiver and tremble with all my fears.

Oh why, oh why, oh why

Past 3 weeks

So for like the past three weeks yarni. I have been on holiday. At the beginning my holiday seemed as though it would just be a total bore, not knowing what was in store for me.

So my holiday actually started with me going for the brazil italy game, semifinals that is. Awesome indeed. An experience to treasure. Just being a part of such a great even is such a great privilege that i don't take for granted. I thank God so much yarni for such good times.
After that, i made my way to a place called Germiston, was visiting a friend. Ah i decided that i wouldn't just sit and chill in the digs this holiday. So i pandad a matatu, and plus this friend is the freshest chile ever yarni, asin she just brings fun yarni wherever whenever yarni.
Spent close to a week there, good times indeed. I had fun for sure.

Came back though home, the next week was kind of boring. Just sat home really doing nothing. Sleeping till like 12 or 1. That really does pass time, makes the days shorter. Especially if its during winter. You would so want to have those days as short as possible and as warm as possible.
I guess staying indoors was also of benefit because it kept my energy stored for the events that would take place the following week.

Last week of my holiday actually started on the friday of the previous week. Went to Jozi for a dj adrian bash. That was totally awesome yarni. Had not had that much in a long time. Actually i have realized i always say that after like i go out and hanye with this chile i was talking about earlier. Man was that night fresh. Nothing naughty even. It was just laughter, joy, a whole lot of dancing and some dranken confessions. Eish jo! Again, good times.

The following week, made my way to midrand, again to visit the special friend. Asin i just wish she knew just how much i care for her yarni. Am sure she has an idea but maybe not the whole thing yarni. Eish jo! She is just like a little sister, si i would do anything for her yarni.
Oh by the way, have a very beautiful girlfriend, whom i love so much, so no, me and this chile have nothing going on for sure. She is just a special and good friend, who looks out for her boy and her boy looks out for her.
Wednesday comes, we leaving the house to go look for liquor which we've all craved yarni. We take a cab, go into some joint in the townships yarni, because the bottle stores are all closed yarni, real shame. But what was jazzin was the extent to which we went to get liquor, that was jazzin.
Came home, drank, acted a fool, woke up next day, hangid the end.

Thursday, made our way to jo'burg cbd-very feared place yarni. I don't even know what took us there, but we had to get to some other mall, and the javs to there were found in jo'burg cbd. The other alternative would have taken so long yarni. Got to the mall anyhu, safe and sound, thank God. What we had gone to do became that and to add on shopping yarni. Its amazing what sales can do, they can make money appear from where it was never.
Went back home reached at night. Was hungry as hell, cooked ugali. And i am proud to say i cooked ugali for 5 people, and it was well cooked, all enjoyed it :-)
After that, started preparing to go for hanye in jo'burg, horror cafe. Reggae and ragga. The very best of, actually, that i have seen yet in Sa. What a night that was. From hustling for ride, to the stunts that happened at the club. Deadly indeed.

Friday, just as random as the others. Skipping details of the day, night time, i get a text, guys are planning on hanyeing, by the way, we'd decided we were sleeping in. Never happened though. I make my way to newscafe, its full, but kicking all the same. House music has this effect on me yarni. That night has vitukos, being stopped by cops, driving around at weird hours of the night, looking for a spot that's kicking, mad domes. We check into the house at 6 in the morning. That time other peeps are leaving for work. Sisi watoto!!!
Saturday, more chilled though. Go for nyam chom with some pals. Lekker for sure. Then just chilled at some digs, have a few drinks. Then randomly guys decide to go out to pretoria. No one seems to object, and for sure i wouldn't give up the chance to dance to some house music, especially after a few sips of that russian bear. Saturday night. Beautiful night, lovely night, lekker night, for sure. Met many other kenyans. Didn't even know the population of kenyans in Sa was that huge yarni.
Anyhu, had alot of fun with other kenyans. Deadly indeed!!!

Sunday, ok, starts slowly, wake up at 1. Start planning on how i will make my way back to pretoria because school opens on monday. So now its back to the life of school yarni. More discipline, less going out.

But the holiday has been unforgettable, no way i can ever forget it. The three chiles i have hang out with, thank you guys so much. The love for you is so much yarni, you don't understand. Thanks yarni for being the friends you are guys.

Looking forward to next hols, no that's too far, next weekend is more like it.

More lekker times ahead!!!